Day 91... WHINE WARNING!!!

I was doing fine, really, with the wait. Sure, a shorter one would have been wonderful but I had always told myself the Olympics would delay travel so September it would be... not because I had hard facts that it really would but because I would rather have been pleasantly surprised than disappointed.

This afternoon I hit the wall. We are so above average with this wait (every other step seems to have taken longer for us as well compared to most others) and there seems no end in sight at this point. The process that was so predicatable two years ago (Brynn's adoption was so easy!) no longer exists. Many people are switching to Special Needs adoptions now and that has slowed the process for those of us who started out matched with a waiting child (don't get me wrong... I am so happy that more children are finding families... I'm just sad it is not my turn). LOAs came today for some of those people but not for us on the traditional path and that upset me but when I found out some of those people were with my agency, it broke my heart . I had been holding out hope for tomorrow and I have a hard time believing my agency will get packages back-to-back.

Then, I found out today, that a family who I have been corresponding with who was DTC the same week we were and was logged in two days before us received their LOA and their TA both in June and will be back home with their baby by the end of July! Again, I am happy for them but sad for us.

Our official information about Jin Pei is now 1 year old. My agency told me several weeks ago they would ask for an update but we have heard nothing. Then my agency send my DTC group an email on Monday saying they were going to ask about our LOAs but I am not holding my breath.

I had a big Moose Tracks sundae for dinner and even that didn't help. Sigh. I want off this roller coaster.

No more posts (on this blog) until I have good news... this funk makes blogging no fun for me and I can't imagine fun for anyone reading.